Knitting and stuff
Unpacking knitting… Maybe.. Definitely not lace, but I *might* dig out the socks I was working on. We’ll see.
Stuff… One of my biggest fears right now is spending the rest of my life alone. I’m pushing towards my 60th birthday (alright, it’s still 6 months away), and my luck with relationships has been less than stellar. Not much of a talker, not very good at striking up conversations with women, mostly a shy old fart. Don’t even know where to go to meet eligible ladies. Don’t do the bar scene. Don’t like girl seeking boy/boy seeking girl ads. Agnostic, so I don’t do church. KInd of limited opportunities.
Anyway, overall things are better. Better attitude, now that I’ve started making the big decisions. Blues are mostly under control. Still sad, but that’s different than the days of depression I was going through before. Shit happens. You can’t control the flow of life and the best you can do is ride it out and hope it’s all for the best. Right now I don’t think so, but all the friends that know what’s going on tell me it will get better. I guess it couldn’t get worse.
Alone again today. But I have the day off, the weather is going to be nice and I think I’ll head into Portland and enjoy the day. See ya later…
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Judi wrote:
you go guy! And have some fun while you are at it.
Posted on 26-Aug-06 at 8:53 am | Permalink
Chery wrote:
Now that sounds better! Hope you have a good day.
Posted on 26-Aug-06 at 11:42 am | Permalink
Rachel wrote:
Well, you do knit. How about joining a knitting group? Lot’s of women there. You never know, but one of those little old ladies might know just the right girl for you… Awww heck, at least you’d get to knit for a while.
Posted on 26-Aug-06 at 11:55 am | Permalink
Heather wrote:
I think Rachel might be on to something there.
People always tell me when I’m down that things will get better, and even though I don’t want to hear it when I am blue, it usually turns out to be true.
Maybe focusing on your knitting would be good for you - I wouldn’t be inclined to put mine away!
Posted on 26-Aug-06 at 1:12 pm | Permalink
Judy (aka Mom) wrote:
I agree with the joining a knitting group idea. There are knitting groups all over Portland, and there must be one somewhere that might fit into your schedule. Most LYS around here like knitting drop-ins, too.
Even if you don’t find a special someone, you might still make some knew friends and have some fun.
Posted on 26-Aug-06 at 8:59 pm | Permalink
Hope wrote:
I’m happy to hear that you’re feeling a bit more in control and even happier to hear that you’re thinking about getting your knitting out. Everyone needs a chance to *zone out* for awhile and do something that they find enjoyable.
By the way, I like Rachel’s idea of joining a knitting group. You can make some new friends and have an awesome excuse to get out every week. There’s lots of SnB groups to be found on Yahoo Groups. If there’s not a group in your area, maybe you could start one? Lotsa luck
Posted on 26-Aug-06 at 9:05 pm | Permalink
MarQ1 wrote:
I was sort of looking forward to your progress on Feather & Fan. If you caould doit, I could try.
All that stockinette has a calming effect, rather soporific sometimes.
I should start a sock, though; it has a more immediate gratification than F& F.
Posted on 27-Aug-06 at 7:47 pm | Permalink
Yarnlot wrote:
Good morning from Belgium,
reading your blog since a long time now…
I hope you continue to find strength and inspiration in creating things and in nature; remember this picture:
http://www.gaiser.org/Coast2048.jpg
Keep knitting,
Yarnlot
Posted on 28-Aug-06 at 6:26 am | Permalink
Mary wrote:
I didn’t find you shy when I met you at Canby a couple of years ago. You were working on that beautiful green Aran and chatted away about wool with me for quite awhile. Love is out there for you, waiting until the right time. Meanwhile, knit
Posted on 28-Aug-06 at 9:14 am | Permalink
Molly Bee wrote:
Way to keep your chin up, Guy! Happiness is a choice you make. Keep those needles movin’!
Posted on 28-Aug-06 at 1:43 pm | Permalink
Judi wrote:
Since that is where your thoughts are going, why not follow them? What would be so bad about spending your life alone? What would be bad? What would be good? Once you start thinking about what YOU need to be/do/have to have a satisfactory life, it is easier to make it happen. Having done a LOT of introspection in the past few years, I know how painful and how necessary it sometimes is. I hope you find the road you are meant to be on.
Posted on 28-Aug-06 at 3:05 pm | Permalink
Sara wrote:
I have doing some thinking about your situation. I keep coming up with ‘pursue your interests’, you have many and you are eloquent, you have talents and interests just have fun. I suspect you will meet someone who is compatable when you are ready. Your relationship with Eileen seems to have been somewhat one sided and you deserve more than that in a life partner. Has the nursery not been a joint effort/investment? You really know your stuff. Hard work though.
At any rate, hang in there. You are free to pursue life in all it’s best and you are certainly not too old for a great relationship including developing the one with yourself.
I enjoy your blog, please don’t disappear, you are one interesting guy!
Posted on 29-Aug-06 at 8:01 pm | Permalink
KarenK from the OR C wrote:
Hi Jerry — I’m going to just be an echo here, there are so many useful and helpful and caring comments that have gone before me, I have nothing new to say, just that obviously you have the ability to touch people through your writing and your photography and your knitting and through just being yourself. You’ll get through this.
Posted on 30-Aug-06 at 10:07 pm | Permalink